Actress Yana Troyanova found out about her son's heroin addiction only after he committed suicide
9 years ago, Russian actress Yana Troyanova experienced a terrible tragedy - Nikolai, her only son, committed suicide. The actress attended the show "Beware, Sobchak!", Where the women discussed many issues, including the death of Nikolai.
Yana never hid her grief. And if earlier she said that her son, 20-year-old Kolya, decided to take a desperate step because of psychological problems, now she admitted: it's all about heroin.
"I tried several times to commit suicide, but my son came to me in a dream and forbade ..."
Troyanova thought she would not be able to return to normal life after she lost her only child.
“Several times I went to the oncoming lane, turned on Zemfira and let go of my hands ... I was sober, but I realized that I could not live with it. I thought about my egoism - I have grief, but a living person is driving in another car ... At that moment I began to think not about myself, but about something else. Once I dreamed about Kolya. He went into the kitchen and, as usual, began to cut the salad. I tell him: "You are dead," and he turns to me covered in blood and says: "Just allow yourself a similar trick!"
Yana Troyanova found out about Nikolai's drug addiction only after his death. In an interview, she told Ksenia Sobchak: “He tried heroin, but realized that he could no longer jump. This dirty, smelly heroin presents you with the fact that you are caught. I have never tried heroin, but I suffered from alcoholism. Alcohol was my master, and there was nothing I could do about it ... "
Everyone deals with their grief differently. It is known that the actress, 3 years after the death of her son, found consolation at the bottom of the bottle, and blamed herself for what had happened.
Sleep saved Yana Troyanova from depression and alcoholism
After the son visited the actress in a dream, Yana decided to live, no matter what.Troyanova not only returned to her work, but also completely recovered from alcoholism. On the Sobchak show, she said: “I wanted everything to be fair. The worst thing in any tragedy is to show people that you are happy. I realized that people expect sacrifice from me, but I was able to survive the tragedy. "
However, Troyanova admits that she is no longer going to give birth. According to her, this is a deliberate decision. “I want to be useful to a large number of people, not just one child. If I give birth again, then I will give this child everything that Kolya did not give, and I will give up my goals. I do not want to allow this unconscious mechanism to be triggered. "